Sunday, 7 September 2025

Walking down memory lane in Aarani

 

 

I was all of six when my maternal thatha (grandfather) left the realms of this world. But in this very short span he had so endeared himself to me that certain memories associated with him and Aarani, the town where he was a practising doctor, remain etched so vividly, decades later. This kindles in me an overwhelming urge to revisit Aarani, the place of my birth which I had last visited as a six-year-old.

 

In the predawn hour one Sunday, my desire takes flight and my husband JR and I are on our way to Aarani, a mere 140 km from Chennai, or less than 3 hours away. As we enter the town I hear the familiar rhapsody of the morning rituals of brooms swishing in courtyards crackling against heaps of dried leaves and other sundries. Stoves – from the humble kerosene and wood-fuelled ones to the modern gas stoves – hiss in a range of decibels under pots and pans. Televisions broadcasts blare with Kollywood numbers. As my eyes rove the surrounds, visions from bygone years tattooed eternally fresh in the deepest alcoves of my cerebrum, spring to life before me. It is my Proustian moment as a rush of recollections swell up like waves and I dive into this treasure trove and takeoff on a nostalgic trip down memory lane.

 

Images of thatha, a stocky figure of pink-rose complexion who could well pass for a European, and I, walking to the town centre, unfold before me. I look for the towering statue of Mahatma Gandhi in his characteristic Dandi March pose that dominated this market place.

 

My eyes scour the alleys, looking to identify the house that was once a holiday haunt. It's home that I still hold dear. But of which I only recollect a kitchen with a sizeable clay pot in a corner, and the open square courtyard from which steps would lead to the terrace. It was here, under a star-studded sky that I would be lulled to sleep by a gentle breeze that carried the mildly sweet fragrance of the yellow cascabela thevetia, or kaneir as the bell-shaped flower is known in Hindi.

 

I fail to identify the street on which grandfather's house was located. Perhaps, it's no longer there! I remember all too clearly, charging down the street behind mattu vandis or bullock carts from which loudspeakers would announce film releases. Dimmed, but firm scars on both knees from multiple falls, bear testimony to this regular exercise I would carry out with gusto. The objects of my fancy were the colourful leaflets detailing movie names and cast that would be distributed from these carts. Further, I would remain spellbound by the cinematic treat of the bioscope accompanied by music that street entertainers would wheel around on cycle carts. These are all conspicuous by their absence. As my mind races like a runaway train, it is undeniably palpable that the winds of change have blown swift and sharp, heralding sweeping changes to this one-time small town. It is no longer the Aarani of my childhood - calm and uncluttered.

 

Also missing, is the roundabout as I recall it, with the majestic statue of the Mahatma. There are yet a couple of his sculptures at two points in the town, but neither as I reminisce. I look around for bakeries to see if I can get some 'animal' biscuits as I still call them - biscuits cut to animal shapes, stored in glass jars and sold by weight. It's obvious these have gone into oblivion. But I'm ecstatic to catch sight of goli soda, the fizzy drink that would have me mesmerized as a kid, least of all for its contents. The Codd-neck bottles which have the glass marble or goli for a cork unlike other bottled drinks, then held my fancy. How the marbles allowed for the flow of the drink without ever falling out of them, was then an enigma to me. With the passing years I unravelled this 'mystery' and also learned that the bottle was designed and patented in 1872 by a certain Hiram Codd, a soft drink maker from Camberwell, London. Now, both, the bottles and their contents appear in their new avatar with several flavours.

 

The evocative power of smells, sounds and sights stir memories hitherto stored subconsciously in the recesses of my heart. I force my way through streets choked with vehicles of all shapes and sizes, amidst the clamour of horns, creaking carts carrying loads well beyond their capacity. I stop every now and then, to soak in the timelessness of the moment, willing myself to see the town of Aarani as I remember it, as a six-year old. How I would enjoy the afternoon jaunts with my pati (grandmother) on the horse cart to buy puffed rice, groundnuts and roasted gram, from which ingredients she would dish up a healthy snack. And then there would be those occasional trips to the talkies, reached by crossing a railway gate, to watch films of the trio of then-leading heroes, Sivaji, Gemini and MGR. I recall nothing of the films themselves, except some evergreen melodies from Pasa Malar and Nenjil Oru Aalayam, besides bingeing on goodies and goli soda.

 

Vellaiamma, the medium-built, all-purpose maid with a smiling and kindly disposition, would be our bodyguard on these outings. My mind conjures up images of Velliamma with the enormous vermilion kumkum on her forehead, and hair bunched into a neat bun that literally still reminds of the baked stuff. I wonder if she is still around somewhere, unsteady of gait, hobbling around with a walking stick. I am elated when a middle-aged gentleman who we meet in a restaurant appears familiar with my thatha's name. I am hopeful he would lead us to grandpa's home. Alas, he has only heard of thatha's name and skills as a doctor who had served in Europe during the Second World War, having been mentioned by his late parents.

 

Sated and disappointed in equal measure at having revisited the place, memories of which I would always cherish, I move on, on an explorative journey of Aarani and its environs. The town which lies on the banks of the Kamandala Naaga river in Tiruvannamalai district of Tamil Nadu, is famed for its rice as much as for its silk. There are various theories associated with the origins of the name Aarani. According to some, it gets its name from araneeyam, meaning, a place surrounded by a forest. Yet others claims that the plethora of Aar or fig trees that once grew in the region has given Aarani its name. The most popular theory, however, revolves around Aarani having obtained its name from Aaru meaning 'river', from the Kamandala Naga river flowing through it.

 

The pages of history accord much significance to the humble taluk and town which was ruled by the Cholas, Pallavas, Vijayanagara kings, Marathas and the Nawabs of Arcot before it fell to the British. In fact, the Arcot Nawabs established their military training camp in the town which also witnessed an active Congress movement spearheaded by M.V.Subramania Sastriar and others. None less than Mahatma Gandhi is believed to have visited the taluk twice to attend political meetings in 1932 and 1934.

 

We visit over two days several ancients temples in and around Aarani. These include the very powerful and wish-fulfilling Kamakur Kamakshi Temple, Erikuppam Sanishwara Yantra Temple, the only one of its kind and second only to Shani Shignapur in Maharashtra - temples dedicated exclusively to Shani Bhagwan, Varadaraja Perumal Koil, and the much-sought after Putrakameshwara Temple where king Dasaratha is supposed to have performed the yajna to beget children. In testimony to this, is an sculpted figure of the emperor under a tree, sandwiched between the temple and the pond overlooking it.

 

As we wind our Aarani travel, it is evident that though the trappings of modernity are everywhere about it, the town yet retains its pastoral flavour. Had thatha been around he would be approaching 120 years, and perhaps stayed on in Aarani. It would have continued to be my favourite haunt, purely because of the warmth thatha exuded, a feeling I would bask in and always hold close to my heart. Some people don't ever depart; they leave indelible imprints and continue to journey with you. He is perhaps, looking at all of this, his family, from somewhere above, around...

 

 

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Friday, 30 May 2025

 

Reflections as I Meditate……

 

They desired, YOU blessed, I am conceived

I cozily curl, secure and warmly cocooned in her womb

I kick, I turn, I toss and tumble, traumatizing her

Yet she bears me with care and love, an entire forty weeks

As compassionate hands ensure my safe passage into the planet

I finally emerge, much to their delight, wailing my head out.

With love, most undemanding, Mata-Pita - my first Gurus,

These selfless souls nurture and cherish me with care beyond compare

They nourish me with abundance, to good health and vigour

They are not alone, in contributing to my physical and mental wellbeing.

How can I ignore those unknown, unseen tillers and farmers

Without whose labours, I, like all others akin to me, would starve, and even perish!

Do I not owe my comfortable and tranquil sleep,

Yet to those nameless beings who crafted the bed on which I repose?

O Almighty, when I worship your Blemishless, Divine and Protective Padukas

How can I fail to acknowledge with gratitude, those faceless shoemakers

Who make possible with ease, my walks on rough, rugged, and thorny terrains?

My head bows down in eternal debt to those countless Gurus

Who initiated my Aksharabhyasam and led me beyond,

To that realm of knowledge and learning, a never-ending, enigmatic journey?

Even the Ravanas and Duryodhanas who bruise and batter my psyche

Are they not my benefactors, for they bring me closer to YOU?

There are umpteen others - unknown, unseen and nameless

Who shower their benevolence upon me as I plod on in this sojourn on Earth.

True to the dictum, “Deivam Manushya Roopena”

When it is YOU all the way…..

Through those known and familiar, to the innumerable strange benefactors

My very core should weigh down in humility and gratitude.

But why then this arrogance, what for this pride

Why do I seek validation, to what purpose, and from whom

Under what delusion do I dwell when I know all is illusion

I yet reside a tenant, in the vast and dark desert of ignorance

When will this veil of unintelligence and folly, part

To enable me to realize that

Except YOU, the veritable SAT CHIT ANAND

All else is but a mirage?

The Quest continues as I lumber on,

To know “Who Am I”

 

 

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As I sat in Meditation……

 

Let me be a speckle on the Tilak adorning Your forehead

Or a speck on Your Conch, a dot on Your Disc

Or a grain on Your Trident, a fleck on Your Vel

Even a blotch on the tip of Your nail, a trace on Your twinkling tresses

Let me simply be a particle of dust on Your Lotus Feet

But am I not already one of these -----

An atom that is part of YOU

The Supreme Effulgent, Omniscient, Omnipotent, Omnipresent

Ensconced in the midst of infinite others

Like and Unlike me?

There is no suffocation here, no jostling for space

Yet, why this sense of claustrophobia, of being trapped

O Krishna, O Neela Megha Shyamalan

Let me perceive YOU as ONE who rains only Nectar upon us,

Parched, thirsty souls, hungering for liberation

O Krishna, if all of Creation is in YOU

And YOU in each one of us

Why then do I shroud myself in this dark veil of ignorance

And embroil myself in meaningless mongering

Why do I not see YOU, KRISHNA in my brethren

Let me steer away from this tumultuous territory

And beat retreat to a quiet corner of my intellect

To engage in silence and peel away the many layers

Under which I’ve taken refuge

No matter in which states or levels of consciousness

Let me be my own keeper, Only my custodian

To delve into my core being

To unravel the mysterious self

To attempt to understand that enigmatic and Eternal Quest

“Who am I”

It doesn’t matter by what name I call You O Krishna

O Anatharakshaka Aapathbandava

It’s a desperate cry of deep anguish by a ruminating soul

In this life, to see only YOU, O KRISHNA, in every object

With malice towards none, no hatred, no ego, no vice.

 

 

 

 

 

Friday, 29 November 2024

 

A Tribute to Pooshie Krishnu


 





We met you for the first time on 26th of October 2022 when we visited you in Canada. Till then, we had only seen you in photos and videos. You stole our hearts right away with your saintly and gentle eyes. You only reinforced your sagely demeanour when without fail you would emerge from wherever, at the unearthly hour of 3 a.m when I would attend my weekly Bhagavad Gita classes while there. Hearing our Guru Parimala ji’s voice, chanting the verses, you would faithfully sit near my chair, the entire hour and a half of the class, week after week, not missing a single session. It took me a couple of weeks to notice this act of yours. It was then that you became for me, not simply, Pooshie the dear one, but the Divine Pooshie Krishna, Pooshie Krishnu as I began to call you. Not just this, Ram told me about how he was forced to abandon his Sandhya Vandanam session because you would promptly go for the water kept for the purpose!

 


Pooshi Papa makes himself cozy on the papasan


Tears well up and flow in a never-ending Niagara as I pen this tribute to you dear one, who we now refer to in the past, as we would all be spoken of when our time comes. This is indeed the way of all flesh that makes its appearance on this mortal plane. But to us, your maternal grandparents and  family, you were not ever a Cat as others would call you, but our adorable first grandchild, Poosh, our wonderful grandkit. And a truly Divine being at that! What better proof than yet another one – you slept beautifully and Divinely in our Creator’s embrace, on the auspicious Kartika Ekadashi, the day before yesterday, yet another 26th in our life.

 


Where our world of mortals indulge in hate-mongering and insensitivity despite their sense of reasoning, you bowled us over with your warm, unconditional love. If you had wonderful parents in Chillu and Ram, they were more fortunate to have you with them, even if only for four odd years, for having filled their lives with bountiful joy.


 

Stay safe dear child in Krishna’s realm where only goodness, love and peace prevail, where you’ll be free of pain and suffering that we creatures on this earthly plane experience. Though our hearts are heavy with sadness at your departure, soon these tears will be peppered with plenty of smiles and even laughter, recalling your various antics – your agile hopping on to the table to join us at dinner, that regal leap to the showcase to squeeze yourself next to the Arab idol, and your most majestic posture as you would sit inside and look out into the portico at the world go by, your faithfully following Chilbul and swirling your tail at her work table or awaiting her return from outdoors near the door. Many are the ways in which you would show your unadulterated love for Chillu and Ram – an endless list to recall, and even words elude me to recount all that you did and were. You will always remain our most cherished little one. It’s not Goodbye to you Beloved Pooshie Krishnu, but a simple Bye, till I greet you when my time comes to join you in that Paradise where you presently are. Till then, my only prayers that I can spread that unconditional love that your humble life has taught us.

Wednesday, 3 August 2022


2388 Steps to Lord of the 7 Hills

 

The tug of the abode of Sri Venkataramana - Tirumala Hills, Upper Tirupathi or ‘Seshachalam’ – the mountain of ‘Sesha’ the Divine Serpent, as it is variously called, is simply irresistible. Its pull as a potent panacea for the problem-ridden pilgrim is just as powerful as its allure for the spiritual seekers. 

 It’s been an annual ritual of sorts for us siblings as family, to undertake a trek uphill to pay our obeisance to Sri Venkatesa. Thanks to the nerve-racking pandemic, we had to forego the jaunt after 2018. So here we are, JR and I, after a gap of four years, ready to trudge up 2388 steps to seek His Divine blessings. A gently inclined road leading to the steps of Sri Vari Mettu from where trekkers’ ascent begins, has us gasping for breath! My hitherto positive disposition is suddenly edged with trepidation and butterflies somersault in my belly as 2388 steps appear intimidating.

 

We muster courage, give each other pep talks and gingerly accelerate our pace of walk as we come upon the Lord’s temple at the foothills. The slog up is a veritable test of our cardiac and general fitness. It is not enough that we have our masks pulled down to allow air through our nostrils; we take in lungsful of oxygen, our mouths agape. JR, to the chants of Vishnu Sahasranamam and I reciting Hanuman shlokas, join other devouts who energize themselves and fellow devotees with loud “Govinda” in chorus. It is 7.24 a.m as we set foot on the first of the 2388 steps.

 


The boundless sky is splashed in a kaleidoscope of colours as the solar giant appears in all his glory. The vistas that spread before us are stunning as we halt every now and then to catch our breath. The enchanting colours of nature, wild blossoms in white, lavender and yellow contrasting with foliaceous trees that blanket the surrounding mountains, are invigorating in every possible way. The chirps and tweets from the avian world seem in sync with the chants of “Govinda”. The entire stepway is covered on top with asbestos that resonates with the thud of simians which swing from tree to tree, making occasional jumps on the roof. 

 

Vendors make hay as the wayfarers recharge themselves with bottled drinks, tea, coffee, lime and sweet lime juice, buttermilk, slices of melon, mango and cucumber and bhelpuri.


It is 7.37 a.m as we touch the 400-step mark. JR and I give ourselves a pat on the back having covered more than a sixth of the way in just 13 minutes. We feel encouraged and are hopeful of reaching the top in an hour and a half. Now and then we wet our parched mouths with filtered RO water from taps that are there every few yards along the pathway. We feel exhilarated as we cross every milestone - 800, 1100, 1500, 1800, 2000 steps.


No class, no caste, no chauvinism here – rather, there is compassion and camaraderie, even a kind of kinship as a sprightly sea of humanity wends its way up bare-footed, cajoling, cheering and inspiring fellow beings – strangers all - flashing genial smiles as they sense sagging spirits.  We are completely zapped by their devotion and fervour. We have them in all shapes, sizes and acts – some have walked a couple of hundred kilometres from their villages in Andhra, others who have come in busloads carry backpacks and humble airbags; yet others have toddlers perched on them. There are ladies and young girls who apply turmeric and vermilion dots on every one of the steps as they march along, menfolk who bow down and touch each one of the steps in reverence to the deity they proceed to worship.

 

As beads of perspiration trickle down their very being, face, back and all, their zeal not in the least dampened by the hot and humid weather, I am forced to remember Sri Krishna’s words in verse 26 of the 9th chapter of the Bhagvad Gita : 

 Patraṁ puṣhpaṁ phalaṁ toyaṁ yo me bhaktyā prayachchhati
tadahaṁ bhaktyupahṛitam aśhnāmi prayatātmanaḥ.

Meaning: “If one offers to Me with devotion a leaf, a flower, a fruit, or even water, I delightfully partake of that item offered with love by My devotee in pure consciousness.”

 

Finally, much to our relief and delight we see ourselves on the landing – the light at the end of the tunnel! We have done it in 1 hour and 45 minutes, just 15 minutes more than what we had taken to do 4 years ago. My joy on having reached is heavily tinged with awe, seeing the devotion and utter sincerity displayed by our fellow pilgrims who weather all kinds of hurdles to seek HIS grace and benevolence. The journey is yet another learning experience in this University of Life for me.

 

 

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